The insurance on my car just ran out for the last time. I've called the towing company, they're coming soon to pick up the car and I'm giving the proceeds to KGNU.
For the forseeable future, I will not have to pay car insurance on a admittedly disposable car (read: things break, because they're put together with DOUBLE SIDED TAPE), or pay ~$2.25 for a gallon of gas every three weeks, or get stressed out in traffic, or deal with cops pulling me over for no reason. It sounds great and I think it will work for me. I give myself out as an example for anyone else they may be unhappy sinking their paycheck into a car. Own up that driving a car isn't the best thing for the environment, for the current political climate and it isn't good for your body.
I'm getting a bike - one of those bikes with no brakes and no gears. I'm going to Home Depot to buy the largest steel chain they got and the burliest padlock to wear around my waist when riding and to lock up the bike when not. I'm going to back everywhere in town and my legs will get amassed with lean muscle tissue. I will get in better shape simply by doing errands. If I go somewhere that's not in town, I'm going by plane with my bike in tow, using a ticket purchased from all the money I've saved from not being lazy fat American that can't see past their own short sighted "comfort" and convenience.
The only thing I fear is my right knee's condition - it usually doesn't like bike riding. I hope and pray that if I just keep working out and building up strength, that it will deal with me using it every single day for miles and miles.
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Currently, I'm rethinking a way I've been living: I came to a conclusion a few months ago: that no matter what the reason is - how stupid it sounds - whatever, if there's an issue/problem of importance to your significant other (or friend, whatever), it's worth talking about and getting through and understanding.
The reason to this admittedly liberal view is this: everyone is different and if it's that certain issue is important to someone that you care for, it's important to you too. It could be that you find that my shoes make you afraid that pink bunnies will come out of the sky and devour every other finger of yours and you Grandma's. You know, whatever.
The problem with this simple ideology, is that you need respect to make it work. If you think this lovely way, it does not guarantee that the other person will, and for the most part, I find that they don't. They will still act in greed and selfishness. If I have an problem/issue, no matter what it is, they still need it to have some sort of valid reason to be for themselves or they call bullshit. "It does not make sense to me." translates to, "I don't want to understand: you are wrong".
I feel that I've put myself out for many people and gave understanding, guidance and patience and had it spat in my face. I feel that I've giving myself up to be taken advantage of. I feel people do not want understanding, they want opposition to fight - because that's all they know how to do: fight it. Kill it. Win over it and be victorious. Be the Alpha dog for the next confrontation.
I don't want to be that way. I want understanding. I don't want a hierarchy in my life - especially not in a relationship with someone I may Love. I don't have the answer to what the best way to handle a problem is anymore. I don't mean to cause a problem and I want to communicate with the other person why the issue isn't right.
I don't know why it's so hard. It can't be simply the people I find I'm attractive to. There has to be something else. I mean, Love exists, right? It's just not an excuse!
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