But confused isn't a good enough response - it's an excuse. Excuses are used when you try to hide the truth. For all I know, you're hiding the truth from yourself. I bet all you are is a scared young woman. I wonder if all you do is try to surround yourself with things that seem stronger than you - in an attempt to shield what's really inside you - what's both intensely beautiful and at the same time incredibly fragile and most likely, broken. It's called a shell and I've seen it before. It works, but it never really solves the real problem and it's not a problem I can directly help you with. All I can do is show you my perspective which will be different than yours - as per definition.
All this is just a guess - a hypothesis. What I know is that the way I'm going to solve my current problem that involves you is to not surround myself with what I think will protect me. My Love will never be under such conditions. I would rather have it torn a part by someone elses confusion than have it pushed down a very deep hole. Love is like anything else, it gets stronger the more you use it. The more you test it. It doesn't grow by itself or because of someone else. It's because of what you do with it.
And honestly - you had two things you could have done. You could have told me the truth and it would have hurt me greatly, but you would have at least known you were honest. "I want to be with someone else". Or, you could have stepped back, because that's what works when you're confused. But then again, you were never "confused", were you? Or would you also be, "confused" about your present, "Situation".
If you're reading this - why? And why didn't you answer your phone when I tried to call? You had no problem answering your phone during coffee, which I find intensely rude.
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