November 2004 Archives

I realized today that I've been looking internally for answers to my problems, and my internal self has been less than helpful. They don't know what to do, but they can't tell me to look outside myself. I'm not saying that you should always look outside yourself for answers, but there are times to do both - it's just that you'd be crazy to think that continuing to do something the same way will produce a different outcome. You have to learn to change and learn to learn.

I feel as if I'm two people; one of me is looking over the other's shoulder as the other one of me is trying - by failing to read, because the presence of this other part of me is too much of a nuisance to keep the focus on the book.

The part of me reading the book will not tell the other part of me to stop looking over their shoulder and that part of me won't ask what the book's about. It's a cyclical stalemate.

Time, perhaps, to just take a walk.

Ms. Holly Golightly:

Ms. Holly Golightly and Mr. Bruce Brand.

Holly had the flu, there wasn't as many people at the Larimer as there should have been, but it was much like before, almost one year and a month ago to the day.

After the show, outside of the larimer, I continually tried to stop Jack from drinking a beer that he found, 'somehwere' inside the Larimer, and Holly - such the Mother figure of the group, drove past us in the tour van and honked. We waved back and wished them luck in getting to Dallas.