(This girl wrote me a letter and told me a few things that cleared my head
of all my tom foolery I have been doing, reminded me of how lazy I am sometimes,
how inconsiderate you can easily become and how much I need her. Here's a letter
I never sent to her)
Dear Dhalia.
Wow, Gosh, I want to say I'm sorry. I want to say thank you. I want to say
I need you, I care for you and I want the best for you. I want to say I want to
help you, as you've helped me, I want to say I'll pay you back with all the things
you've done. I want to make everything better. I want to say I'll be there, by
your side when you wake up. I want to tell you your amazing. I want to remind
you I'd be in a huge debacle without you reaching in, picking me up and steadying
my walks then and even today and probably tommorrow.
Sometimes you take things as you see them at the moment, and not what they
were worth a day, month, 6 months ago. I have to say I've gotten pissed off at
the stupidest things, the little inconsistancies and didn't look at the big picture,
at you, at how much of me is you. Its sad I was somewhat short sided. It wasn't
right, I'm sorry.
I know I'm far from perfect, I also don't see myself fit for you and I've
begun to wonder and be amazed every day that I'm with you, of that very fact. That
I AM with you! It's amazing. Maybe I think too little of myself, maybe in retaliation
I thought too little of you and that made me feel better. Pretty weak huh? Yes
it was. Without repeating myself or some Beatles Tune, I want to make you realize
how much you mean to me and how much more I am because of you.
