after five months of my computer lying dormat in its cow spotted gateway boxes, first in the possession of a friend to get upgraded and
then in my parents front porch when the said guy decided he wasn't planning to upgrade it, it is finally back in my little paws.
i found this picture i took with a black and white polaroid camera i found at a used camera shop on my hard drive. its of a friend saying hello to some ducks, holding in line skates cause shes an inline skatin kinda girl.
i really love it. for a 20 year old polaroid camera, the print came out awesome, it's quirky cause we took lots of pictures that day and this is the one that came out the best. of course the friend that was the subject, is hysterical about getting pictures takin of her, so hey, she made the best one. my friend and i just ohhhed and ahhhed as we slowly peeled the print backing and discovered what we stole from the scene. we tried to hide it from her, but she stole a peek right back and put a bit of a smirk on her face as she found out we went against her simple "no pictures pleeeaase!" wish. but i know that secretly that shameful frown was really her just hiding the fact that she takes a good pic.
i bought a plane ticket to visit connecticut between the 18ths of december and january. i told my mother and she said that she would pay me back for that ("i don't know how, but i will") that brings me up to six hundred dollars my parents owe me. i'm scraping nickles off the floor that my roomate so nonchalantly points out: " wanna make some money" the math triple major/druggie raver jesters, "sweep the floor".
it kinda dawned on my recently that i moved to colorado, i should act like it. i'm still closer to anyone back in ct than i am to people out here. but visiting should be fun. one friend wants me to teach her how to skateboard, one wants me to pierce her nipple and help her learn how to juggle, still another is counting on me to buy her hand cuffs to use on future boyfriends.
i told her there's lots of different kinds, so shes gonna have to get back to me on which ones she wants. i'm planning on taking a trip to a super cool coffee shop in middletown connecticut, go on a pilgrimage to the grave of my favorite author with a fellow beat bud of mine and getting extremely bored in a matter of days being stuck in such a old, dusty, relic of a colonial town. i'm hoping my colorado id will pass as a driver's lisence, at least pass the parent test, and that pimpin '89 buick park avenue will be all mine, (insert over-used maniacal laughter)
as much as i want to hide the fact, the girl i left in ct when i moved in august still has a firm grip on my simple little innocent mind. i'll see her when i visit at a birthday party not soon after i get into town, i haven't talked to her about this, but things aren't gonna be the same, as much as i want to skew reality and think that 5 months away don't make that much of anything life can hack to you.
i'm glad i found that picture, all we did that day was play children at a park. we, (well, i) hanged on the monkey bars, climbed all over the playscape, did handstands, summersaults, and just sighed as our eyes reflected the late july sun's incandescence. if i manage not fall anymore on my skateboard going 30 down very very large hills i should survive long enough to say a small hello to everyone i forgot i missed and maybe get a (little) hug from that crazy girl that i won't let run away from my cogitation. we'll see. i'll abstract it through a polaroid ee 100 special with black and white film, hopefuly thieving more smiles then smirks.
